Where I Found Him

I have told this story before but I feel that since then my writing has improved dramatically.  There is also a new angle to the story buried in the depths of my words.  For the new and old readers, you will love it!

​There's a story of a girl who has always been faithful and trusting in God, but there was a day that made her truly believe.  A day where this girl felt God holding her; there is no other explanation.  This girl is me and what happened that day was almighty, in every way.

​I was about 14 and my Nana and Nanu had brought me to church, jus like they always did.  The Youth Group service and Bible studies were over and everyone was heading up to the "big church" for the main service.  My friends from youth group helped me get situated in the area we designated for ourselves when all of a sudden:

​"I have to go to the bathroom.  Where is it?", I said to the girl sitting next to me.

​"Just up there", referring to the incline up to the double doors.  "Do you need help?  I can get your grandma."

​"No, I'm okay."  So, I went up the ramp, out the double doors, into the sitting room before the bathroom, and then I was finally there.  I opened a stall door, grab bars on either side of the toilet but no turning radius; the door wouldn't close with my wheelchair in it.  I went to the stall that looked like it was larger.  It had a five foot turning radius but the grab bars were on the opposite side from the toilet.

​By this time I had tried and failed, I was sobbing.  My Nana and aunt Dottie came to check on me then.  We went into the sitting room where they asked me what was wrong. I told them how the bathroom wasn't accessible, how I fell trying to use it on my own, how I couldn't go anyways but I had to.  I told them this while still sobbing.  And then… they put there hands on me and started praying!

​I had always been faithful and trusting in God, but in that moment I felt His arms around me.  I could feel Him hugging my spirit and saying, "calm down, child.  Do not worry."  I went from sobbing to calmly breathing so quickly.  I just felt absolutely loved, the almighty God loves me for me.

​Whenever I'm questioning where He is; whenever God stretches me so thin that I think I can't handle anymore, I think of this story.  Just like a rubber band when God stretches you He is testing your strength, but you will always snap back because you are strong.  And, He never leaves you, even in the bathroom.