I know this body. It has been mine for soon-to-be 19 years now. This body has not functioned properly for almost my whole life. I understand that it hides the problems happening, but that does not mean that something wrong is not going on. That does not mean that I do not know what's happening. I am not crazy and I am not a hypochondriac.
When I say my body likes to hide what's going on, I am not kidding. Let me tell you a story that explains what I mean to a tee.
I have had two back surgeries. A spinal fusion, and a revision to that spinal fusion. A spinal fusion is a procedure where the surgeon uses titanium rods, screws, and bone grafts to correct severe scoliosis. A revision surgery is when they have to go back in to correct a previous surgery. My spine is fused from T-3 all the way down to my pelvis. While fusing my spine they discovered a broken vertebrae that had not shown up on any preoperative X-rays; it was hiding. After my recovery I started experiencing a sharp, stabbing pain in my hip every time I took a step. I was also experiencing a dull pain whenever pressure was placed on my back, like washing my back while showering. We did multiple X-rays which didn't show anything. The pain was not fading or going away, so we did a CT scan which didn't show anything either. Finally, my surgeon decided to perform a revision surgery. He didn't know what the cause of the pain was or what he was looking for; he went in blind. What he found shocked him. The screw in my hip was completely stripped from its place, I had two large abscesses, and another broken vertebrae. My body was hiding it all from the X-rays and CT scans, but I knew something was wrong. I knew it was more than just pain, and, my surgeon listened to me.
I've been called crazy too. I went to a pulmonalogist for trouble breathing and she told me to go see a psychiatrist. Turns out I have 37% lung function and restrictive lung disease. I know my body!
My body hides its problems, but I am not crazy or a hypochondriac. I know my body better than most. Believe me when I tell you something is wrong! Believe me when I tell you that it's more than what you think! My body is a puzzle, but I know this puzzle as it physically makes up me.
When I say my body likes to hide what's going on, I am not kidding. Let me tell you a story that explains what I mean to a tee.
I have had two back surgeries. A spinal fusion, and a revision to that spinal fusion. A spinal fusion is a procedure where the surgeon uses titanium rods, screws, and bone grafts to correct severe scoliosis. A revision surgery is when they have to go back in to correct a previous surgery. My spine is fused from T-3 all the way down to my pelvis. While fusing my spine they discovered a broken vertebrae that had not shown up on any preoperative X-rays; it was hiding. After my recovery I started experiencing a sharp, stabbing pain in my hip every time I took a step. I was also experiencing a dull pain whenever pressure was placed on my back, like washing my back while showering. We did multiple X-rays which didn't show anything. The pain was not fading or going away, so we did a CT scan which didn't show anything either. Finally, my surgeon decided to perform a revision surgery. He didn't know what the cause of the pain was or what he was looking for; he went in blind. What he found shocked him. The screw in my hip was completely stripped from its place, I had two large abscesses, and another broken vertebrae. My body was hiding it all from the X-rays and CT scans, but I knew something was wrong. I knew it was more than just pain, and, my surgeon listened to me.
I've been called crazy too. I went to a pulmonalogist for trouble breathing and she told me to go see a psychiatrist. Turns out I have 37% lung function and restrictive lung disease. I know my body!
My body hides its problems, but I am not crazy or a hypochondriac. I know my body better than most. Believe me when I tell you something is wrong! Believe me when I tell you that it's more than what you think! My body is a puzzle, but I know this puzzle as it physically makes up me.
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